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Oct. 26th, 2006 05:14 pmI had something this afternoon that was too low-key to properly be called an anxiety attack, but in some ways, it was still near paralyzing. Just listing the amount of stuff I'm doing -- or not doing, in the case of college and scholarship apps -- was enough to make me unwilling to move, make decisions, do anything.
It passed, after I made a concrete decision to walk over to West rather than mope somewhere, and followed through, and hung out with cool people.
I got home and was thinking, "Hey, y'know, things aren't so bad now."
Which was when I reached into my pocket to grab the key to the rehearsal space for tonight and found it gone. It was in the pocket with my iPod -- it was, I remember putting it there -- and it's not in the house or the car. Which means that at some point, I probably pulled out my iPod and dropped the key and didn't notice.
Cue profanity.
I'll go in and I'll grovel and I'll offer to pay for a replacement, and it'll be fine because Janet's nice. Just. Damn. Real good start to being a "responsible adult".
It passed, after I made a concrete decision to walk over to West rather than mope somewhere, and followed through, and hung out with cool people.
I got home and was thinking, "Hey, y'know, things aren't so bad now."
Which was when I reached into my pocket to grab the key to the rehearsal space for tonight and found it gone. It was in the pocket with my iPod -- it was, I remember putting it there -- and it's not in the house or the car. Which means that at some point, I probably pulled out my iPod and dropped the key and didn't notice.
Cue profanity.
I'll go in and I'll grovel and I'll offer to pay for a replacement, and it'll be fine because Janet's nice. Just. Damn. Real good start to being a "responsible adult".