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Feb. 7th, 2008 11:36 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
adiva_calandiaSeriously, I don't know what's up with me lately. I think maybe I'm having an existential crisis. This is the second time in a few days that I've almost had to stop moving because I suddenly became aware of "the bit behind the eyes" (who am I stealing that phrase from? PTerry?), how utterly bizarre it is to be conscious, floating along and seeing things -- and even more than that, realizing that everyone I see is the same. We're all conscious, sentient beings, and we can't see ourselves except in fragments. We can only see each other.
And then I start thinking that because I'man attention-whore who looks in every reflective surface she can a very visual person with a pretty clear image of myself (useful when acting), I can imagine how other people see me, and then it's all I can do to keep walking normally because suddenly I feel like a disconnected consciousness, viewing and being viewed at the same time.
It's extraordinarily disorienting.
It's kind of how I imagine River Tam must feel. That -- seeing out of your own eyes and seeing out everyone else's at the same time.
Anyway. It's very weird, and sort of cool and disturbing at the same time. I'm okay with it happening if I'm sitting down, but it happening when I'm in the middle of crossing a street is kind of inconvenient.
Ah, well. So if you hear that I get hit by a car, you can guess it was because I was struck by the incredible fragility and nonsense of being in the middle of jay-walking.
So how about that John Barrowman in a vest, huh? Rraor.
Also, Owen's fetching pink-stripey-military-style shirt cracked me up.
I second what other people have been saying: Gwen/Jack makes me want to punch someone in the FACE, and Owen/Tosh needs to make up its damn mind already. Unlike some, I don't see too much issue in Tosh's abrupt rebound to madly-in-crush-with-Owen after last week, but Owen's flip-flopping takes me right back to last season when I hated his guts. Which sucks, because I was really starting to like him this season.
Whatever. Ianto wins everything ever. "Oh! Hello! Now if you'll hold on just one moment, I have a gun around here some-- ah!" Not to mention that he's kind of hardcore. He stunned that guy in the FOREHEAD.
I liked the space whale. And I liked Jack's "Oh my poor friend," despite it being the corniest line EVER. I sense echoes of the Face of Boe.
More late; class now.
And then I start thinking that because I'm
It's extraordinarily disorienting.
It's kind of how I imagine River Tam must feel. That -- seeing out of your own eyes and seeing out everyone else's at the same time.
Anyway. It's very weird, and sort of cool and disturbing at the same time. I'm okay with it happening if I'm sitting down, but it happening when I'm in the middle of crossing a street is kind of inconvenient.
Ah, well. So if you hear that I get hit by a car, you can guess it was because I was struck by the incredible fragility and nonsense of being in the middle of jay-walking.
So how about that John Barrowman in a vest, huh? Rraor.
Also, Owen's fetching pink-stripey-military-style shirt cracked me up.
I second what other people have been saying: Gwen/Jack makes me want to punch someone in the FACE, and Owen/Tosh needs to make up its damn mind already. Unlike some, I don't see too much issue in Tosh's abrupt rebound to madly-in-crush-with-Owen after last week, but Owen's flip-flopping takes me right back to last season when I hated his guts. Which sucks, because I was really starting to like him this season.
Whatever. Ianto wins everything ever. "Oh! Hello! Now if you'll hold on just one moment, I have a gun around here some-- ah!" Not to mention that he's kind of hardcore. He stunned that guy in the FOREHEAD.
I liked the space whale. And I liked Jack's "Oh my poor friend," despite it being the corniest line EVER. I sense echoes of the Face of Boe.
More late; class now.
