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adiva_calandia ([personal profile] adiva_calandia) wrote2009-10-14 06:52 am

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A few days ago I was reflecting that 21 doesn't seem that much different than 20, or even 18. I feel outstripped by freshmen regularly. I certainly don't feel like I've got a handle on everything, and I had sort of expected to by now, you know? 21 seems like . . . a handle-having age.

Then I was looking back at journal entries from 2007, my senior year of high school.

Oh God. If you ever need proof that you've matured and changed over time, look at old journal entries.

I suppose that's the important point. Today I'm 21, and I don't really have a handle on things -- but I'm closer than I was a few years ago, and in a few years I'll be closer yet.

I secretly think that no one ever really gets a handle on things, you just learn to fake it and stumble along, and then every so often you'll find that you do know what you're doing, in one sphere at least. And that's kind of scary as hell -- but it's kind of great, too.

Now then. An 8 AM class as a way to start off your 21st birthday kind of sucks, but needs must.
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[personal profile] wakeupnew 2009-10-14 01:13 pm (UTC)(link)
That is so true! Reading old journal entries is so scary. Happy birthday!
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[personal profile] vivien 2009-10-14 01:37 pm (UTC)(link)
Happy, happy birthday, m'dear!!!
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[personal profile] skygiants 2009-10-14 01:41 pm (UTC)(link)
Happy birthday! <3
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[personal profile] jothra 2009-10-14 03:13 pm (UTC)(link)
Happy birthday! It's totally true. It's not very comforting, but I still don't know what I'm doing. :P

But I do know I'll write you some fic if you tell me what you'd like.

[identity profile] ghost-light.livejournal.com 2009-10-14 03:35 pm (UTC)(link)
Happy day!!
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[personal profile] bcgphoenix 2009-10-14 03:45 pm (UTC)(link)
HAH, yeah, there is a reason I've locked down my archives from 2004ish and earlier. *high-fives*

And happiest of birthdays to you, m'dear. <333333!

[identity profile] littledust.livejournal.com 2009-10-14 04:10 pm (UTC)(link)
Happy 21st! May you legally enjoy a delicious alcoholic beverage or three! ♥
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[personal profile] gramarye1971 2009-10-14 04:42 pm (UTC)(link)
Happy birthday!

(Also, I have a little thing-in-progress for you -- I need to finish it up when I get home tonight. I think you'll find it amusing.)
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[personal profile] misslucyjane 2009-10-14 05:01 pm (UTC)(link)
Happy birthday!

[identity profile] kornopolous.livejournal.com 2009-10-14 06:13 pm (UTC)(link)
A; happy birthday again

B; just to add to the affirmations that we all just "fake it" all our lives - yup. Just when we have a handle on things... along comes a bigger fish to confuse us
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[personal profile] catch22girl 2009-10-14 10:55 pm (UTC)(link)
*HUGS* Happy Birthday!! OMG. I feel so old. I remember when you were NOT 21. Also OMG you're 21! I think you've got more of a handle on things than I do :)

If you ever figure out the world give me a hint.
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[personal profile] the_croupier 2009-10-15 12:35 am (UTC)(link)
Yay, happy birthday!!


Does suck about the 8am, though. =P
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[personal profile] batyatoon 2009-10-15 01:06 am (UTC)(link)
Happy birthday, dear one.

*smishes you*
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[personal profile] silveraspen 2009-10-15 02:02 am (UTC)(link)
happy birthday, hon.